As I hit my month long introspective journey, I’m struck by the footprints I’ve laid down before and what impact I will leave as I walk currently. The details elude me, leaving only the sensation of their vague echoes.
This season marks two transformation cycles, both in nature with Autumn descending upon my home and from within as I enter the month long sojourn that is Opet. As the leaves change their colors and fall, the pieces within me either breakaway, fall in to place, or create something new. Each time I have celebrated Opet there has been the creation or destruction of the defining factors which I am able to weave my path.
However, this year brings unknown factors and results I am not able to predict nor have a guide for.The main reason why the expectations are different are due to the new focuses I have decided to work on to develop myself.
I snicker a little bit at this detail. My Opet is the celebration and a rigorous work period with the Theban triad. The members function within the unseen places and along secretive paths. Their focus is on the work within silence and the hidden. Mut has always been a caring and guiding force in my life when I have encountered/worked with Her. Amon-Re and Khons have been part of my personal retinue for some time, however that bond was deepened this year with the oaths I took on Wep Ronpet . The two of them have a tendency to make everything interesting.
I have no doubts the work I do this Opet will leave a long-standing mark upon me.
Onwards to the hidden path!
I have set up my Etsy shop and here it is: http://www.etsy.com/shop/HiddenSightCreations#
I welcome any thoughts and constructive criticism. There will be more items listed, but I wanted to get it opened so I think seven is a good number to start with. It’s been a weird week, and I’m surprised at how I’ve been taking leaps with everything. I welcome it, but it’s surprising.
I also have a GoFundMe account to try and get some boost with this whole wanting to not be in the grind forever. The site is here: http://www.gofundme.com/4hntwg
I’m trying to tell myself it’s okay to ask for help with this project. I’m so used to the mindset of “someone has it worse, so I shouldn’t ask for what I should get on my own”. It’s not that I’m greedy or that I’m going to run away with the money. I want financial help specifically so I can do this project.
I am going to work my butt off to get this rolling. I still have to create the Logo and the banner on the computer, but I have a drawing of what it’s going to be.
For a reminder as to what this is all about, see this post: https://withinthewateryheavens.wordpress.com/2013/09/18/r-is-for-the-reign-of-the-hidden-and-s-is-for-starting-anew/
“S” is for Shop, because mine is now open for business.
As Opet approaches I find myself looking deeper and deeper for, well, everything.
I’ve been having a rough time with life in general. I haven’t been happy with the requirements bestowed upon me with living in this time on this plane of existence (bills, work, familial interactions, and other aspects in general). I have been trying my damnednest to make it all work, or have I? Have I really sat down and stopped myself long enough to actually think about/change what is happening?
I suppose I really haven’t put much in place of anything. I have all of these ideas and desires of what I want to do, and the rational/Debbie-Downer part of me is holding me back from taking any actual risks. What if it doesn’t work? What if I fall short?
As I begin to explore what the Netjeru expect of me during Opet, I will walk a parallel path in to diving in to the unknown of the here and now. The parallel path is why my post covers two intersecting topics for two different letters. Isn’t that what the hidden is, what is right in front of us waiting to be found? Something “new” we haven’t seen? Isn’t it the results of the work we may not see, but certainly experience?
So as Opet approaches I made the giant leap and have started to grab a hold of my own wheel and I’m going to spin it myself. I have taken the first leap and am nervous/excited to announce my project: HiddenSight Creations.
This is the name of my new shop in Etsy and is the name of my ongoing project. The project can be summed up like this: I want to eventually be able to allow myself to be supported by my creative ventures. I want this project to be a network with others on collaborative projects in everything from artwork, jewelry, film, video games, music, and other creative ventures with an emphasis on spirituality of all colors and regions.
I feel that although there are influences out there, it tends to be more tailored towards popular ventures, ie a pagan store that sells Goddess imagery (I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, just that I see it more often than not), or movies like “The Mummy” (which all I need to say is five canopic jars, guys). I want to be able to create my work that is with my own “voice and experience” and to create a network with a far-reaching group that explores spirituality for what is for them and to help give people the tools to express themselves to the world.
I’m finalizing the logisitics and will have the link up in a different for everyone’s curious eyes as to what I do, and am going to do.
With that, “R” is for reign of the hidden, because of the personal influences currently helping with the steering, and “S” is for starting anew, because I refuse to fall any further and up I go.
I’m sure some of you who are reading are tired of the angry whinging I have been spewing out the orifice of my brain to my fingertips. This post is everything but the anger, the depression, and all of the stupid negative crap. I’m done with all of THAT for a while (it will be ritually execrated on the 7th of August for the Closing of the Year).
Music speaks on so many levels. It can excite me. It can sadden me. It can bring unconscious tears to my eyes and down my cheeks. Music defines my life, how I live it, and how I interact with others. It is a connecting web to vocalize with others and self.
A little while back when I was faced head on with community and other people outside of the experiences I’ve been plagued with locally, I encountered a new phenomenon: music for deity representations. Now, I have a collection of music that has tracks named for different deities, but thinking of popular music lyrics as songs for deity was not something I ever thought about.
After reading posts and talking to others I started to look at the songs I listen to over and over again and what drives me to be addicted to them. I found they capture stories and inserts of stories.
For example, here is the beginning of the song “Eye of the Storm” by Cruxshadows. The lyrics listed below captured my attention from when I first heard it, and even drove me to make an AMV (Anime Music Video) back in the day where I was doing things like that.
“The trials you now are facing
They are not greater than your will
For there is nothing under heaven
You cannot overcome
See the door that lies before you
And know this too shall pass
The confrontation of your tears
In strength drawn from the past
When the silent voices whisper
Find the course that is your own
And however great the obstacle
You will never be alone
For I have watched the path of angels
And I have heard the heavens roar
There is strife within the tempest
But there is calm in the eye of the storm”
The thought of overcoming anything and everything appealed to me because of the experiences I have had throughout my life. I strive (not just desire it) to overcome everything however great or small. It was brought to my attention some time ago that this song can also be equated with Set. I started to think about it deeply. The lyrics really speak towards being that epicenter to drive everything along and breeze by those who don’t matter. It is Him. It is me, and all of a sudden it made more sense as to why He has invested so much in to me. We are one and the same in the path we have chosen to walk.
I am considering a large project that would catalog my music in to playlists for different Netjeru, so I can maybe get past my own dense nature and lack of connecting my life with Theirs. It has been an ongoing breaking down the walls series, and is going to be used more for breaking down the walls than trying to capture ALL of Their essence.
Another twist was recently added to this thinky-thought. The other day I was listening to a walkthrough of Kingdom Hearts: Dream Drop Distance (Nintendo 3DS game) and one of the worlds (Symphony of Sorcery) is based off of Disney’s “Fantasia” where Mickey is an apprentice caught in the trance of a dream-eater and music has to be obtained to wake him up. The music obtained at the end of it all with the two combined pieces between Sora and Riku was the musical theme of friendship used in the different entries to the series called “Dearly Beloved”. I had forgotten the power that simple little musical piece moved me. Yes people, video games move me.
It isn’t just the lyrics of songs that create a literary connection to self and others. It is the rhythm, the notes, the speed and other standardized guidelines of musical quality that can drive emotions and connections within me. Which leads me to ponder MANY things.
One of the essences of my “work” that I’m actually able to talk about is storytelling. I have beem entrusted to share who They are with the world. One of the aspects of this work is to tell the stories using different mediums other than lectures and powerpoints (I’m not bashing those who do traditional mediums, it’s just not MY method).
The challenge has been to take what’s washing around in my head and translate it to something others can understand. Hence why I have a degree in Art and Film. My original plan was to go in to animation and game concept design, but that has shifted to work in as many mediums as I can, for example jewelry, film, painting, drawing, and now potentially music.
In the coming times I may have some pieces for the internet to feast upon (or barf upon as it may be). My goal is to experiment with the idea and run with it for a bit. “M” is for making musical lore, because it can be done. Well, not just it can be done, it has already been done for thousands of years, now it’s just me connecting the dots and having it go along with my work.
Well then, I already can give myself a red check on my challenge. I missed a day (9-8). However in my defense, it was a busy day. I figure today is a good day to post the first real attempt at coherence I have had since figuring out how things fit together as a whole. The long piece posted below is my own interpretation and mixing various creation stories to make one. When I am talking to others I tend to keep them separate, however my friends challenged me to make them all in to one, hence why I call this “interpretive”. In this case, accuracy is only about 75% because it is meant to be a “creative” experience not a “textbook” experience. My understanding has even changed beyond this. When I have a chance, this is part of a long list of to-do’s, I would like to revisit and show the evolution of thought. I wouldn’t lecture with this material, but it would be fun to expand in other mediums also. Please enjoy and feel free to leave any thoughts, and as always Ma’at will bite you in the ass if you steal content from others, so please if you want to reference me, let me know, and at least give credit where credit is due.
“In the beginning, there was only the endless ocean of chaos personified later as Nu. He was encircled and embraced by two nameless serpents until they found their first names. The first was Apep who embodies the deepest depths of Nu. The second was Kematef who forced the light of creation to illuminate Nu. These two forces would be forever locked in never-ending combat. When the light pierced the chaos a blue lotus rose and when it opened, the sun rose for the very first time and Kematef found his new name, Ra, the tri-fold Sun.
Kheper-Ra was the infant light of the sunrise.
Amun-Ra was the noonday sun; strong in mind, body and spirit.
Atum-Ra was the elder embodiment of the twilight that leads to his daily rest and rebirth
As the light spread across Nu, Ra would be joined by others.
Mut, the mother of mothers and the father of fathers would join with the hidden one, Amon, to give birth to the child-like yet wise moon, Khons.
Neit, the lady of war and weaving, who with the help of Nu, gave birth to Sobek, the necessary force of destruction, came forth from the darkness to fight valiantly for the universe.
Ptah, who would call Ra his brother, let his songs weave the universe to what is known today.
Khnemu, who would become the potter of humans after they were first born to Ra, made his home in the cataracts of the Nile’s origin point.
Tehuti, who became Ra’s closest confidant, would become a defining force with his wisdom, magic, and power of speech.
Ma’at would stay by Tehuti’s side as the lady of cosmic order and the keeper of the world’s balance.
When the division of Pet and Ta was to be ordained, the newly created company found a balance to keep the world from falling back in to Nu.
Ra, Ma’at, and Tehuti sailed on a barque across the heavens, proclaiming Ra as the eternal ruler of Heaven and Earth as they went.
Ptah sang the creation of the natural world in jubilation of the Barque of Eternity.
Khnemu would mold the creatures to inhabit the world Ptah created and Ra ruled.
Mut would fade to the background as a supporting, nurturing force. She would only return if a situation arose that needed her touch.
Neit and Sobek came to enforce the necessary conflict and violence to keep the balance of the world.
With the forces of the company, the physical world was able to come in to being. However there was a link still missing. Tehuti and Ma’at knew that in order for the missing link to be woven in to the universe, they needed to leave Ra’s side and head for the Earth below the Heavens. In his loneliness, Ra yearned for the company of others, but could only find enjoyment from himself. In his desires, the actions Ra acted out upon gave birth to the twins of wind and rain, Shu and Tefnut. It is with the twins that share one soul brought the First Breath and the First Waters from Heaven to sustain the life their elders created. Ra, feeling the need to have another half to help raise the twins, created Iusaaset from his shadow. Sometime later, conflict arose and Tefnut left after a falling out with her brother. Shu, feeling lost without his other half, went after her to bring her back. Ra wept for the loss of the presences of his children and from his tears, humanity was born. Shu and Tefnut would later return from distant lands when the world was filled with the infant race.
Humanity was formed as an infant form of the Neteru bound to the physical world, and could only reach for the world of the Neter when they let go of their earthbound bodies. It would be later with the first bridge of life and death that they would be able to ascend in death to be reborn as a Neter, no longer bound by their mortality.
Ra decided to help his new found creations since they were in need of guidance and protection. He ordained his right eye as Sekhmet and his left eye as Bast. Sekhmet was the harsh taskmaster and the fiery inferno that would keep humanity from going astray. Bast was the calming mother and the soft glowing fire that watched and protected humanity from any darkness and strife that came to humanity. Bast taught humanity happiness and enjoyment whereas Sekhmet taught humanity strength and fear.
There was a time that a portion of humanity turned their backs on Ra and he unleashed a frenzied Sekhmet to put them in line. She went too far and even Ra could not stop her. It was only when a small group dyed beer a blood-red and tricked her in to drinking full until she passed out, that the humans were able to stop their impending extinction. Ashamed at her lack of control, Sekhmet would wander the world. In her wanderings, she would cross paths with Ptah. He became intrigued and enamored with her intensity and ability to spread the cleansing will of fire. They would be married and would give birth to the lord of the Lotus and the judge of loyalty, Nefertmu.
Shu and Tefnut would have children of their own. They gave birth to embodiments of the Earth and Sky, Geb and Nut. Before their birth, a prophecy was foretold to Ra. He should not allow the Earth and Sky to join, for the children of such a union would bring calamity and end the Earthly reign of the Neteru. When the twins were born Ra tasked Shu to make sure they were always separated. They yearned for each other throughout many years. It was after the sexual victory of Geb over Shu, that he was able to spend some time with Nut. Horrified at the sight of the pregnant Sky, Ra declared Nut would remain pregnant and her children would not enter the world on any of his days.
Tehuti was saddened by the decree and felt the need to alleviate Nut’s constant pain. He decided to play a game of Senet against the young moon Khons and gambled for five days, one for each of the children within Nut’s womb. He won the days, but it is argued whether it was Tehuti’s skill that outplayed Khons or if Khons let Tehuti win for a morbid curiosity as to the fate of the world that the children would bring.
Ra knew then that he could not escape the Fate to come and relented. He refused to cause any more pain to his family and wholeheartedly participated in their childhoods.
The eldest was named Heru and would become known as Heru-Ur. His personification was closest to Ra and he was deemed to rule over the Earth. He had a close relationship to Set, and refused to let him fight alone and would join in the Sun Barque’s nightly sails. Heru was known for his kindness, wisdom, strength, and sense of honor. He was married to Het-Hert until he stood down as Pharaoh.
The second child, Set, was impatient and wanted to be first and tore himself from Nut’s womb. Set’s strength, ferocity, and darker attitudes led Ra to have him assist in the slaying of Apep every night. Set’s attitude often put others off, but those who had his friendship had a loyal ally. He would be married to Nebthet and Het-Hert until Heru-Sa-Aset would get her when he took over as Pharaoh. In losing Het-Hert, Set gained Anat and Astarte as wives.
The third child, Asar, was the laid back part of the male triplets. He was known for his connection with nature and his ever changing attitudes on life. He wouldn’t play an important part in the world until later in his life. He would be first known as the husband to an early influential power-player, Aset.
The fourth child, Aset, would become a matron of humanity’s link to the divine. She is not as powerful as the other matriarchs before her, but her reputation would spread across the world and influence the affairs of life and death. She was a student of Tehuti, the teacher of Anpu, and became an antagonist to Ra when she poisoned him to learn his names and later interfered with the ruler ship of Kemet. She would represent fertility and the stasis of life with embodying the sun.
The fifth and last child, Nebthet, would be forever remembered as the shadow of Aset, although on her own, she stands on her own. She represents the hidden power working in secret and a force of decay as an embodiment of the moon. She became the wife to Set and their relationship, unlike their other siblings was not stable. Nebthet’s decision to court Asar in secret would be one of the main catalysts in the downfall of the Neteru’s earthly rule.
Heru ruled for many years, but because of his insistence to assist at night assisting his brother and great-grandfather, he would run himself too ragged to continue as Pharaoh. He made the decision to step down and passed the choice of Pharaoh to his sister, Aset. She chose her soul mate, Asar, to take the place as Pharaoh. Set was angered at the decision of the throne going to his less-responsible younger brother, and felt that he would be a better choice. He respected his elder brother too much to go against his will and held his tongue. Asar would appoint Aset and Set as his chief advisors and come to rely on Set’s senior advice.
Asar would live life flamboyantly while the country was regulated by his brother and sister-wife. During a party to celebrate Asar’s rule, Nebthet would disguise herself as Aset and seduce an intoxicated Asar to lay with her. Aset was out of the country on diplomatic pursuits. Asar was still aware of the differences between his two sisters, but did not send her away out of sympathy for her circumstances. As the two pursued passion, the wreath on Asar’s head fell to the ground and alerted all of those present as to what was transpiring. To make matters worse, Asar impregnated Nebthet, a feat that Set was not capable of fulfilling. Anpu would be born of this union, and in fear of what Set would do to the child, Nebthet plotted with Aset and left him in the desert. Aset would shortly find the child and raise him as her own. She was not cross with her sister or her husband, as the motives were pure in her eyes. However in sleeping with Nebthet who is a neteret of decay, Asar would become half-mortal. This would allow Set to bide his time and plan his strike carefully. The final insult was too much for Set.
It was on a night some time later during a party that Set and seventy-two of his followers would strike. Aset was once again out of the country on diplomatic business, so she wasn’t there to thwart the plan. There was a contest as to whoever would fit in to the bed would be able to keep it. The bed was made specifically to fit Asar and when he laid down, Set and his followers nailed it shut and placed the coffin in to the Nile. Set would take control and when Aset came back, he imprisoned her, knowing she would try and overthrow him.
Aset escaped with the help of Nebthet and Anpu and she went in search of Asar. Aset would find her husband deceased and encased in a willow tree. She would use the magic she learned from Tehuti to try and resurrect him. Set would discover her plan and chopped the dormant body in to fourteen pieces and scattering them across Kemet. Aset, Nebthet, and Anpu left in search of the body parts. All of the pieces except for one would be found. Set, in the form of a catfish, swallowed Asar’s phallus. Aset and Anpu would perform the first embalming. Asar became the link between life and death that allowed for ascension and rebirth for all mortals. After crafting a clay phallus for Asar, Aset would turn in to a kite and breathe enough life in to Asar to become impregnated. The child she would carry wasn’t able to receive a name of his own, because his father’s soul was nonexistent.
Heru could only watch as his siblings turned on each other and felt bad for Aset and gave his own name to the unborn child. He would fade in to the child and reside there for all of eternity. Heru-Sa-Aset was born. He was a sickly child and his mother would be cross and harsh, only concentrating on training the child to avenge his father. Nebthet would be his kind, caring nurse who showed him there was more to life than the battle he was being prepared for.
When Heru-Sa-Aset was beginning adulthood, he went with his mother to avenge his father and take the throne from Set. An ongoing battle of eighty years ensued until it was ruled that Heru-Sa-Aset would be given the throne. Asar could not retake the throne as he was now a judge of the dead as Seker and ruled Aaru with Anpu as his assistant. Heru decided that the Neteru needed to rule from the shadows as their virtues and vices put the world in too much danger and influence too much. Heru passed the ruler ship of Kemet to humanity. This ended the twenty-six thousand year reign of the Neteru, ushering an age of conflict and the final loss of paradise.”