So, everyone, the word of the day is “teacher” . A word abused more often than not among people. This word is a curse throughout the history of my religious journey, and I have a horrible trigger when it comes to “teachers”. I have been faced with those who both abuse others and mislabel themselves with this term. It’s not a rigid role, it doesn’t have singular meaning, and it’s not a role to be taken lightly.
Is this a role I would ever try to obtain?
Considering my own experiences, probably not. I’m not in the mindset of wanting nor feeling qualified to take the steps to be responsible for the guiding and education of others. My mentality is if They threw me off the dock to teach me to swim, others can experience that too. The best lessons are the ones learned the hard way and not handed out. Now, that doesn’t mean I’m going to be an unhelpful person. If someone asks questions, I’m going to answer. I’m going to help when I can and when I feel like it.
It’s not my role to intercede on everyone’s behalf, but it is in my code to assist those I care about. If they happen to learn something from it, it’s a bonus for all of the parties involved. I take a different approach in regards to my personal path. I have built my own way and refuse to speak in place of others. If I’m asked to speak about my opinions on others and how other paths function from my own perspective, I sometimes will feel inclined to speak, but I will NOT speak the words others (whether they are Kemetic or other paths) are entitled to speak.
Now here comes the complicated part.
My work from my Mri-ib includes Storytelling and spreading Their names to the world.
Isn’t that a form of teaching?
Well now, that complicates things.
Now for even more complication.
For anyone who read the two posts on my system of Shen, the purpose of the Study Guide will be familiar to you. For speedy context and or reminder: I took an already created system (The Book Of Doors Oracle), turned it on its head, and appropriated the system based on my own sensibilities. The system is used as a direct channel to Them and to the connections to the universe around us. For those interested in diving deeper towards the core principles of the system (of which I have one interested so far), I have created a study guide to be studied to allow for the ability to eventually not need me as the intermediary.
Now, this sounded like a bad idea at first glance. Why would I create a system that dives so deeply to the cores of my beliefs and give the potential for others to run amok with it? My answer: It’s not my job to babysit all of the people I meet. If the information I’m going to offer is going to be abused, it doesn’t matter if I give the system to others to run with the information or if I do the readings myself. If I’m going to completely restrict what others can and can’t do with the system after I’m giving them my trust, how much do I actually trust them?
It was imperative to start my work in Opet by finishing the guide, so at the entry of the festival, I had completed one of my tasks The Hidden One deemed to me.
“T” is for teaching and translating Shen, because both roles define my current thought process and shadow wrestling.
Guess what time it is?
It’s time for Dice and Divination Part 2. Last week I described an oracle called, “The Book of Doors” in detail. I would suggest reading that post before this one, because it will make more sense in the long run.
I first saw the “Book of Doors” in 2005 and promptly bought it. I was amazed as to how different it was to Tarot. As I taught myself the system, I noticed the readings I performed with the dice did more for me than the readings with the cards. I found the cards worked well for using as icons in rituals and giving imagery to others when I told stories. I tried to learn how to interpret the meanings according to the system. It was very difficult to find a resonance with the concepts as they were stated in the book, but I still worked to figure it out.
A little later, the dice for the oracle was lost and never seen again. I went to the neighborhood Shinders to try and find an eight-sided dice to replace the lost one. They had a bunch of different colors to choose from and I got a few of them to try. I noticed the difference between the “feel” of each one as I used them.
I later discovered a store up in St Cloud, Minnesota called “Paddy’s Game Shop” and it was while I was looking in the store at their bin of dice that I figured out I could make a system based on multiple dice. How the idea came up in the first place, I couldn’t tell you.
The first system used sixteen dice. One set of eight was the “Earth” or “Ta” dice and the second set was the “Heaven” or “Pet” dice. The two sets were used to compare and contrast how the readings went based on the earthly connection and the connection to heaven. This was an emphasis taken from the original oracle but put to a higher place than the alchemy aspect in the oracle. The dice were either rolled one dice two times to place on the square or the whole set was rolled (or better yet cast) to place within each family. I no longer read the meanings based on what was listed in the book, but rather literally based on what I knew about each concept/deity. I would use this system until about 2010 and then another change would happen.
I decided to take the system further and allow more flexibility (or so I thought the end result would be). This systems could utilize up to sixty-dice and was meant to be set up to go back to the “Alchemy” aspect littered throughout the original oracle. Each of the eight families had the other families embedded within them. For example, in Earth there was an Earth in Earth, Water in Earth, Heaven in Earth, Fire in Earth, Sun in Earth, Moon in Earth, Wind in Earth, and Duat in Earth. This was done across all of the families.
As you can probably imagine, the possibilities for readings was endless. There was also an element of individual investment added to this system. Individuals could now have their own dice as a representative for themselves. Now, the types of readings could be endless. As I explored I found that although there was a potential for the system to go far, there was a disconnection I couldn’t put my finger on until a little later in fall of 2012.
I found the disconnection was between my religious “work” and my divination. I was working divination too much as a tool for storytelling and explaining my path and studies rather than a function of self-reflection and assistance ( the oracle pings the top and I wasn’t pinging correctly). My path has been under close scrutiny for some time by myself and (UPG moment) at the level of the Neteru. I hit the point where I felt the need to sit down and figure out what I really wanted to do with everything. I decided it was time to start using divination as divination was supposed to be used and use other facets of my path for the studies and storytelling.
Before this point (to be honestly blunt), the underlying idea was, “I could make this elaborate system shiny and original” but it wasn’t me, and it wasn’t what I feel I needed and wanted from the oracle. It was overkill and didn’t connect with my own practices. I was reading as if it was a story but wasn’t making the connection of what it means outside of “here is some fun facts”. I changed the reading style to look at what attributes from my understanding (somewhat based on the oracle, but for the most part from personal experience and study). For example, rather than saying “This is Aset who is yada-yada-yada” it was “This is Aset, who is blank and this attribute is making itself known because of blank blankity-blank”. The latest system is still in process, but is fairly much complete at the lowest level for the time being.
The name of the last system is “Shen”. I named it based on the idea of encircling, eternity, and the idea of names as embodiments of the people. I have included below the diagrams of the different levels and what is included in each level.
The last level, or the “Ankh” level (which includes a person getting four more of their own dice as listed above) can only be achieved by a few factors: A) I have to trust the person, B) they must have taken the oath to get their Sa dice and have had it for at least three months and have had at least ten readings, and C) have an understanding of what it means to have the parts of their soul labeled/materialized. I want to emphasize both the seriousness and the directness to the people interested. This includes a study guide (an in process project that will be done shortly as I have one person currently interested). After the person hits the point of being able to get their other pieces, a ritual is done to sync them together.
I believe that when others use items that are representations of themselves, it should be taken seriously. If my system works, and I think it does, the person will be walking around with “keys” to their souls. It can be dangerous if not taken responsibly. Becoming Makhaut is not a requirement for the system to function, it just gives a depth.
I wanted to share with others one of the main systems of divination in my practice because the ability to choose and create my relationship to the world, myself, the divine, and others is very important to me. I appreciate any feedback, positive or negative. If someone would like to know more, I could do more detail, but I didn’t want to bore too many people all at once.
Until next time, cheers!